fifteen.

what do all these dreams mean

and what will i grow up to be;

i need to find what's mine

and i'm running out of time

but still running in one place

how will i win this race.

fourteen.

superiority complex.

she thinks she's a star

she thinks people care

about her life

and especially her hair

i don't wanna know your secrets

so please don't shove them down my throat

don't insult my way and life

just because you've moved on

it doesn't mean i'm not where i belong.

she thinks she's a star

with her hundreds of friends

but i'm just grossed out

by her silly trends

and her desperation to be thin

eat something.

i don't wanna know your secrets

so please don't shove them down my throat

don'tinsult my way and life

just because you've moved on

it doesn't mean i'm not where i belong.

she thinks she's a star

and that she'll go far

she thinks she's all that

everyone wishes to be

but i like who i'm trying to be

i don't need to emaciation

just to feel pretty

she thinks she's all that

and loves the attention

but i prefer to be smart

than judged on my looks alone

because one day they'll fade

and what will she be left with

but a couple old photographs.

thirteen.

i'm making this up as i go along

i don't have any answers

and i can't say what's wrong

i can't cheat my way through this one

so lets all hope for the best

i can't smile my way out of this one

but i don't regret

what i've become

and where i have gone

or the places i've seen

and the things that i lost

and i don't regret

the pain i've been through

because in the end

i was right to depend

on you.

i can't remember who i was

and i don't have the answers

i didn't have enough...

when was i happy

and when was i sad

when was i too tired

to get out of bed...

i don't remember

but i don't regret

what i've become
and where i've gone

the places i've seen

and the things that i lost

and i don't regret

the pain i've been through

because in the end

i was right to depend

on you.

you showed me

a brand new way

to think and feel

you showed me

the difference between

fake and real

and what i owe you

how can i ever repay

and how can i show you

the love you gave away,

because i don't regret

what i've become

and where i have gone

the places i've seen

and the things that i lost

and i don't regret

the pain i've been through

because in the end

it led me straight
you.

twelve.

i'll go with

whatever you say

the lights are

bright

and they're blinding my way

i'll let you

forge my path for me

because i trust you

more than i can trust me.
and i truly believe
that i trust you
more than i trust me.

eleven.

bam

blasts the canons

one

for every minute

bam

blasts the shotgun

out

go your lights

ten.

the bruises on my cheeks

remind me of the weeks

i spent alone

i spent alone

the bruises on my tongue

remind me of the ones

who got away

who got away

the bruises on my brows and lids

remind me of the kids

we used to be

we used to be

nine.

it's way past midnight

and i'm wondering where you are

it's way past midnight

i wait till 3 and i

turn out the lights

i wait till 4 and i

close my eyes

i wait till dawn and i

get out of bed

how could this happen again

how could this happen again

it's way past midnight

and i'm wondering where you are

it's way past midnight

as i watch the speeding cars

wondering where you are.

eight.

last little bubble of soap popops

along with our hope popops

how do we cope popops, popops.

how could we go on

now that our hope's gone

now that our hope's gone

da dana dana

dana dana da da da

dana dana da da da dana

seven.

i try to make sense of all the sentences spinning inside of my head,

i'm trying to tame all these thoughts that are whirling and filling me with dread.

i don't know how to go from here

i don't know how to go.

i'm trying not to think too hard because it makes my heart break,

i try not to cry too much because it makes my head and body ache.

i don't know how to go from here

i don't know how to go.

i'm trying not to imagine next week because it scares the hell outta me,

i try not to surrender to despair because i don't want to lose hope.

i don't know how to go from here

i don't know how to go.

all i know is i have to find

a way to make things right

all i know is i have to hold on

and hold you really tight.

i'm trying to fix my life, so if you could please be patient with me,

i would really like to spend my time with you and happily.

i don't know how to go from here

i don't know how to go.

but i know i need you here

to help me find my way.

six.

i need this more than you will ever know.

i have nothing else to do

and no where else to go.

i need this more than i'll ever let on.

so build this with me

before the opportunity's gone.

two birds, one stone

lonely but i'm not

alone

i need this more than you will ever know.

i have nothing else to do

and no where else to go.

the sun rises everyday and sets each night.

all this time that is wasted,

thinking about my life.

it's easier and harder

with every word

it's clear and foggy

with each day dream.

five.

this coffee shop

is starting to feel like home

day after day

here all alone.

four.

you're a bitch

you broke my heart.

i'm falling down

i'm falling apart.

you're a bitch

you shoulda known

i'd take it hard,

fall apart.

the tables have turned

and now that i've learned

how it is on the other side

i can't let go.

i need a grip

cause i can't run and hide

i'm falling apart.

you're a bitch

you broke my heart.

i can't imagine

what you thought.

i guess i'm falling apart.