eighteen.

and i always thought you'd

be the one to tell me i belong

be the one you fall in love

with.

and i always thought you'd

tell me i was home

and that i was the one

for you.

seventeen.

[old]

it's 2:17

and i'm stalking the streets

and i'm waiting for trouble to find me

it's been a while

but you're still on my mind

and i think tonight's the night

cuz what have i got to lose

what have i got but the truth

where do i have to be

if you can't love me

it's 2:34

i push open your door

just to see you laying there

with your arm around her

and somehow i still care

it's been a while

but you're still on my mind

and i think tonight's the night

cuz what have i got to lose

what have i got but the truth

where do i have to be

if you can't love me

you said you can't love me

you said you can't love me

you said you can't love me

you said you said

it's 2:45

and you wish she were still alive

in a fleeting thought

just before you caught

a sight

of the look in my eyes

and in an instant you knew what you should have done

in an instant all your fears have become

a reality

now it's you and me

our turn

cuz what have we got to lose

what have we got but the truth

where do we have to be

when you can't love me

you said...

now it's 2:53

and i'm stalking the streets

i hear the siren scream

and i'm waiting for trouble to find me

i've got blood on my hands

sixteen.

such a mess

you tell me you're leaving

town for a while

i know you'll be back

so i nod and smile

you tell me you love me

with all of your heart

but how come we're always

so far apart

we're a mess

where to begin

i'm addicted to you

it must be a sin

that you keep pushing me back

then drawing me in

it's such a mess

where to begin

where to begin

you tell me you miss me

where are you today?

skipping through cities

instead of with me

you tell me you love me

with all of your heart

but i can't handle

when we're apart

we're a mess
where to begin
i'm addicted to you
it must be a sin
that you keep pushing me back
and drawing me in
it's such a mess
where to begin
where to begin

you tell me you're sorry
every second day
for something that's hurt me
but it's always the same

you tell me you love me
with all of your heart
but i can't even trust you
when we're apart

we're a mess

where to begin

i'm addicted to you

it should be a sin

that you keep pushing me back

then drawing me in

it's such a mess

where to begin

where to begin
where to begin
where to begin

you tell me you need me
and plead for me to stay
but i'm not the one who's
leaving today

you tell me you love me
with all of your heart
but maybe we're meant to
stay apart

we're a mess
where to begin
i'm addicted to you
it must be a sin
that you keep pushing me back
and drawing me in
it's such a mess
where to begin
where to begin

 

you tell me you miss me

where are you today?

skipping through cities

instead of with me...

fifteen.

what do all these dreams mean

and what will i grow up to be;

i need to find what's mine

and i'm running out of time

but still running in one place

how will i win this race.

fourteen.

superiority complex.

she thinks she's a star

she thinks people care

about her life

and especially her hair

i don't wanna know your secrets

so please don't shove them down my throat

don't insult my way and life

just because you've moved on

it doesn't mean i'm not where i belong.

she thinks she's a star

with her hundreds of friends

but i'm just grossed out

by her silly trends

and her desperation to be thin

eat something.

i don't wanna know your secrets

so please don't shove them down my throat

don'tinsult my way and life

just because you've moved on

it doesn't mean i'm not where i belong.

she thinks she's a star

and that she'll go far

she thinks she's all that

everyone wishes to be

but i like who i'm trying to be

i don't need to emaciation

just to feel pretty

she thinks she's all that

and loves the attention

but i prefer to be smart

than judged on my looks alone

because one day they'll fade

and what will she be left with

but a couple old photographs.

thirteen.

i'm making this up as i go along

i don't have any answers

and i can't say what's wrong

i can't cheat my way through this one

so lets all hope for the best

i can't smile my way out of this one

but i don't regret

what i've become

and where i have gone

or the places i've seen

and the things that i lost

and i don't regret

the pain i've been through

because in the end

i was right to depend

on you.

i can't remember who i was

and i don't have the answers

i didn't have enough...

when was i happy

and when was i sad

when was i too tired

to get out of bed...

i don't remember

but i don't regret

what i've become
and where i've gone

the places i've seen

and the things that i lost

and i don't regret

the pain i've been through

because in the end

i was right to depend

on you.

you showed me

a brand new way

to think and feel

you showed me

the difference between

fake and real

and what i owe you

how can i ever repay

and how can i show you

the love you gave away,

because i don't regret

what i've become

and where i have gone

the places i've seen

and the things that i lost

and i don't regret

the pain i've been through

because in the end

it led me straight
you.

twelve.

i'll go with

whatever you say

the lights are

bright

and they're blinding my way

i'll let you

forge my path for me

because i trust you

more than i can trust me.
and i truly believe
that i trust you
more than i trust me.

eleven.

bam

blasts the canons

one

for every minute

bam

blasts the shotgun

out

go your lights

ten.

the bruises on my cheeks

remind me of the weeks

i spent alone

i spent alone

the bruises on my tongue

remind me of the ones

who got away

who got away

the bruises on my brows and lids

remind me of the kids

we used to be

we used to be

nine.

it's way past midnight

and i'm wondering where you are

it's way past midnight

i wait till 3 and i

turn out the lights

i wait till 4 and i

close my eyes

i wait till dawn and i

get out of bed

how could this happen again

how could this happen again

it's way past midnight

and i'm wondering where you are

it's way past midnight

as i watch the speeding cars

wondering where you are.

eight.

last little bubble of soap popops

along with our hope popops

how do we cope popops, popops.

how could we go on

now that our hope's gone

now that our hope's gone

da dana dana

dana dana da da da

dana dana da da da dana

seven.

i try to make sense of all the sentences spinning inside of my head,

i'm trying to tame all these thoughts that are whirling and filling me with dread.

i don't know how to go from here

i don't know how to go.

i'm trying not to think too hard because it makes my heart break,

i try not to cry too much because it makes my head and body ache.

i don't know how to go from here

i don't know how to go.

i'm trying not to imagine next week because it scares the hell outta me,

i try not to surrender to despair because i don't want to lose hope.

i don't know how to go from here

i don't know how to go.

all i know is i have to find

a way to make things right

all i know is i have to hold on

and hold you really tight.

i'm trying to fix my life, so if you could please be patient with me,

i would really like to spend my time with you and happily.

i don't know how to go from here

i don't know how to go.

but i know i need you here

to help me find my way.

six.

i need this more than you will ever know.

i have nothing else to do

and no where else to go.

i need this more than i'll ever let on.

so build this with me

before the opportunity's gone.

two birds, one stone

lonely but i'm not

alone

i need this more than you will ever know.

i have nothing else to do

and no where else to go.

the sun rises everyday and sets each night.

all this time that is wasted,

thinking about my life.

it's easier and harder

with every word

it's clear and foggy

with each day dream.

five.

this coffee shop

is starting to feel like home

day after day

here all alone.

four.

you're a bitch

you broke my heart.

i'm falling down

i'm falling apart.

you're a bitch

you shoulda known

i'd take it hard,

fall apart.

the tables have turned

and now that i've learned

how it is on the other side

i can't let go.

i need a grip

cause i can't run and hide

i'm falling apart.

you're a bitch

you broke my heart.

i can't imagine

what you thought.

i guess i'm falling apart.

three.

i thought maybe you would stand up for something

i thought maybe we'd catch onto something

i never thought we'd leave with nothing

i promise i won't leave without you.

without you.

i thought maybe the world would feel a little lighter

i thought maybe the sun would shine a little brighter

i never thought i'd be a doubter

i never though i'd be without you.

without you.

two.

there's no meaning in your words

drunken whores

slamming doors

spinning floors

spinning floors

nothing will change my mind

not puppy dog eyes

this was all a lie

you never tried

you never tried

one.

each day gets worse

thinking about the past

feeling feels like a curse

how will i ever last.

tell me what should i do

dreams are so hard to find

i wish i could tell you

what drifts through my mind

how do i hold on to hope

dreams are so hard to find

how will we ever cope

when life seems so far behind

each day gets worse

thinking about the past

feeling feels like a curse

how will i ever last.